I fell in love with this song the moment I heard it. And when we had lunch with Gary V several months ago and he mentioned that this was one of his favorite songs as well, I fell in love with it again. I don’t know if he got to do his own version in an album though.

The song is really about trust. And about a love that is so much greater than we could ever imagine.

When I look back at my own life, I realize that the journey has not been all that easy. And things didn’t really turn out as I originally planned them. There was a time when I was really SURE I wanted to be a Jesuit for the rest of my life. Forever was so easy to say at that point. Life “fell into place”. And for awhile I was really happy–not in a fake, so-so way. There was real JOY there somewhere.

But life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans.

Things may not have turned out as people would expect. And God is so good that even if it wasn’t my vocation I was still able to do good in the little time given to me. Not because I was good. But because God is.

I’ve loved and lost and loved again. In different ways and iterations and versions. It’s nine years since I said forever to the Society of Jesus. And it’s been one year since I left.

And throughout all that, there was deep joy there somewhere. Not because I am good. But because God is.

In the end, I trust. In the end, I allow myself to be swept by a love so great it will allow me to go on my own and look for myself. A love so great I could not understand everything about it. A love so great that despite the difficulties that I’m encountering, the waiting that has to happen and the not-so-clear future ahead, I still hold on. And I still am able to love.

We’ve really come a long way. And you still know better than I. That’s why I keep walking.

1. Lunch with Gary V
2. Angels Brought Me Here